Silly things

like roy spelling "m-o-m s-t-o-p!" when she was walking too fast on our way to church
the car putting in one last beep after I put on the seat belt
my mom getting upset over silly things
putting the wrong kind of dressing on the chicken
the fence blowing down
the remote control car that drives up walls
watching movies of sam baker in chile with the little girl that's in love with him
the blanket of olives on our grass that make you slip
running at night in the rain
commenting on facebook pictures and getting a date out of it
still liking a boy I haven't heard from in 9 months, still missing him after a year
making a whitty comment about an option being the letter before 'A' that doesn't even exist
missing friends that I want as brothers
watching the no. 1 ladies detective agency and loving the gay hair stylist and the black women's butts & smiles
officially deciding to double major
reading prince caspian on my floor for an hour
learning about a pile of letters written to me over 16 years
being beat by my five year old brother in soccer
learning that man was re-married
having my mom admit things
having the worst 80s cheesy "I love Jesus" song I've ever heard in my life blare during relief society, as part of the lesson
going to the spanish branch
eating hummus every day, twice a day
learning the seven ways to manage a budget
taking a million pictures of the green grass
not being able to sleep
and bonding over dreams with my step-dad

choose the feeling

It's my birfday!

It was a super fun party!
I was an earth goddess wearing a
gold dress from the 1950s.

People gave me beautiful flowers and cookies

and I got to spend the night dancing

with some of my favorite people:)

Thank you everyone for the wonderful

birthday wishes!

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Wake up
It's a beautiful morning
Honey, while the sun is still shining
Wake up
Would you like to go with me?
Honey, take a run down to the beach

Oh, mama
I wanna go surfing
Oh, mama
I don't care about nothing


down down baby
down down the roller coaster
sweet sweet baby
i'll never let you go

Tuesday Tude

help! get me off the depressed express

Sunday

Sunday visits are one of the best parts of Sunday

Happy Sunday!

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Monday, Monday..

life is wonderful, it's a wonderful life
the whole apartment went on a cleaning spree around midnight
(cleaning checks tomorrow)
but it was kind of fun

I finally hung pictures on my wall, and put the beautiful old picture of my grandma in the white picture frame on my shelf next to my paint brushes, go figure it'd take me half way through the semester before I put decorations up.. I wish I had more time to paint


music makes me miss things

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fishes

Break the fast

Miracle of the loaves and the fishes

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FRIDAY

I was telling someone last night that I love Fridays, but I even love the word Friday itself. In order to say "Fri-day" You have to open your mouth like your smiling. :) Which is why Friday is the best, happiest day of the week! And saying all this about Friday just reminded me of this skinny happy kid I knew once who's name was Friday. I'm sure he was happy because his name was Friday.

So today I slept in, went to the temple, went shopping with Rob for break the fast and he told me about the apostle, _____(can't remember his name dangit) who used to curse like a sailor over the pulpit and I thought it was hilarious. He's a funny guy. Shopping for break the fast is fun, I feel so great that I'm a part of feeding so many people! I'd probably feel even cooler if I was cooking all of the food.

Now I'm in Physical Science and I plan on spending the rest of the day in the library and in labs then go to the hockey game with some friends and do something exciting after.

I've been thinking a lot about how much I love the 80s.
Or especially the guys in the 80s. I mean it's a well known fact I'm in love with John Cusak, see "Say Anything" to know why. I love lean guys like Kevin Bacon, the skinny jeans and high tops and cheesy pattern shirts with the ray bands gah! they were so HOT. and especially the way they walk and move and dance and bob their heads and flick back hair and had a bit of a mullet. Oh man I love em I love em I love em! Gosh they were all so confident and hot. I wanna be in love with an 80s mannnn.

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Today started with Volleyball, which is always the most hilarious and most embarrassing way to start a day. Beginning Volleyball is responsible for the two hour self-esteem crushing humiliation of my week. I have come to the conclusion that I am not good at sports, nor will I ever be. My only is sport is one that does not require any hand eye coordination, such as running. The scenes from my volleyball class are worse than a movie. There was one day where I got slammed in the face and took a ball to the stomach (knocking the wind out of me) all in one game. Today all that happened was getting my glasses knocked off, (classic embarrassment) but then we lost as a team and Tall Thomas, this guy who really is 12 feet tall and emanates "sports" got really mad when we lost and proceeded to throw the volleyball and slam it across the whole gym for 15 minutes. Everyone exited the court in fear of getting smashed into a pulp. I couldn’t stop laughing it was crazy. He was ZEUS! (our team name) The ball was hitting the ceiling and making thunder.

I came home and ate a lot of granola and peanut butter. The two treats I bought myself for this week, then I went for a run, sang in the shower and almost ditched all my classes to curl up in my bed and cry for no particular reason at all.

But I went to class and wished again that I could really truly remember all the things I'm learning and I groaned about not being able to figure out my career and then went to art history and tried not to sleep and then listened to Daniel Everett in my studio seminar, and I loved every word he said. He has been one of the most interesting artists we've had so far and I want to be an artist and do 18 other things. I got a ride home with Scotty, whom I love. And then we played soccer in the breeze way which was so so so much fun. Everyone was surprised at my aggression haha I LOVE hall soccer. And I made the first two goals and was so happy and we were so loud and it was grand and then we ended when Alyssa was bleeding all over the place (She's totally fine just an old wound opened up) and I helped clean her up and then some guys came over and Jason counted 1027 peas to be like Mendelev and then we went to bed. And oh golly I love life but I do miss some of my close friends and I do want to have a full real day off sometime because I think my mind is mushing under all this pressure.

Last days of being 18 day 2

No gossip November is the goal of our apartment this month. It so epitomizes the difference between girls and boys doesn't it? For boys it is "No Shave November" and for girls it is "No Gossip November" Oh the differences of the sexes.


It is only the middle of the day so I really can't write a full post yet, but I will say it is a lovely day and I am being quite indulgent by letting myself type and read blogs instead of study political science but oh well. I am about to go on a run and shower and get pretty for the rest of the day so I will be productive soon!

Oh could someone else please decide whether I should major in Public Health Promotion or Studio Art oh please could someone make the decision, ANYONE but me!!
Sigh, if only it worked that way.

were

deep in the marshes of the earth
the music awoke us
and the music made us happy
and it made us do things
it moved our hands
and our feet
and our hair
and our noses
and our heads
and our hips
and it liquified us
and we wondered where it came from
and we wondered how far it traveled
and we wondered where it went
and if it would ever end
and what would happen to us if it stopped
and if anything else would ever make us feel this way
and we asked if we were alive
and if we were separate
and if we were all together
and if we were humans
and if we were birds
and if we were trees
and if we were water
and if we were
were
were
were

if we ever did exist

It's October already!

Fall semester is great!

"THE WORLD" is this semester's motto.

-Amelia

I would very much like to find someone to go camping with?

Utah's national parks are begging me to come
I can hear them while I sleep

the peculiar nature of the world to go on spinning

"I’m erased. I’m gone. I’m nothing. And then the world is free to flow into me like water into an empty bowl…. And… I see. I hear. But not with eyes and ears. I’m not outside my world anymore, and I’m not really inside it either. The thing is, there’s no difference between me and the universe. The boundary is gone. I am it and it is me. I am a stone, a cactus thorn. I am rain. I like that most of all, being rain.

I lay in the emptiness, in the tiredness, with everything--drained out. There was nothing left to do. No place to go. Just right here, right now, where the truth was.

In a weird way I must have loved my little collection of hurts and wounds. They provided me with some real nice sympathy, with the feeling I was exceptional.

It is the peculiar nature of the world to go on spinning no matter what sort of heartbreak is happening.

... the only purpose grand enough for a human life... is not just to love--but to persist in love.
I am enough. We are enough. God is enough."

-bits and pieces from Stargirl

a book

all day long I have cozied up by the fire
and read read read
as the wind blew
and the storms raged
outside my window,

Where'd you go?
I miss you so.
Seems like it's been forever
Since you've been gone..

the importance of "hand made"

I like things that are hand made, with human imperfections with human time and effort. It keeps us close to human touch. Buy hand made things, because someone else took the time and effort to create something special. Some real living breathing person put love and care into creating, making, designing that something. To know the person who made the creation is even better because it reminds me of them, causing the object to save a memory, a story. And beauty comes simply in the fact that it was thoughtfully made by someone else. That is the beauty in growing your own garden or doing your own wood work or creating anything with your very own hands--it brings mankind closer together--replaces the cold heart of a machine with the warm heart of a person. People would be a lot happier if they made things for each other and bought and sold these things. Life would be warmer and communites would grow.

goals:
Grow my own vegetables
Paint my own everything
Sew my own clothes
Build my own house
how nice would it be?

"I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls." -Audrey Hepburn

Sky Near

This artist's name is Sky Near, my mom bought two paintings of his for 5 dollars at a garage sale, but they have hung above the fireplace in my house my whole life, I couldn't find the ones we have, but here is a painting of his. He paints weird dripping houses, and I like them.

Trees

All I want to say is that people need to look at trees more, and people would be happier if they looked at trees more.

I mean really look

depresso expresso

no thank yo