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Today started with Volleyball, which is always the most hilarious and most embarrassing way to start a day. Beginning Volleyball is responsible for the two hour self-esteem crushing humiliation of my week. I have come to the conclusion that I am not good at sports, nor will I ever be. My only is sport is one that does not require any hand eye coordination, such as running. The scenes from my volleyball class are worse than a movie. There was one day where I got slammed in the face and took a ball to the stomach (knocking the wind out of me) all in one game. Today all that happened was getting my glasses knocked off, (classic embarrassment) but then we lost as a team and Tall Thomas, this guy who really is 12 feet tall and emanates "sports" got really mad when we lost and proceeded to throw the volleyball and slam it across the whole gym for 15 minutes. Everyone exited the court in fear of getting smashed into a pulp. I couldn’t stop laughing it was crazy. He was ZEUS! (our team name) The ball was hitting the ceiling and making thunder.

I came home and ate a lot of granola and peanut butter. The two treats I bought myself for this week, then I went for a run, sang in the shower and almost ditched all my classes to curl up in my bed and cry for no particular reason at all.

But I went to class and wished again that I could really truly remember all the things I'm learning and I groaned about not being able to figure out my career and then went to art history and tried not to sleep and then listened to Daniel Everett in my studio seminar, and I loved every word he said. He has been one of the most interesting artists we've had so far and I want to be an artist and do 18 other things. I got a ride home with Scotty, whom I love. And then we played soccer in the breeze way which was so so so much fun. Everyone was surprised at my aggression haha I LOVE hall soccer. And I made the first two goals and was so happy and we were so loud and it was grand and then we ended when Alyssa was bleeding all over the place (She's totally fine just an old wound opened up) and I helped clean her up and then some guys came over and Jason counted 1027 peas to be like Mendelev and then we went to bed. And oh golly I love life but I do miss some of my close friends and I do want to have a full real day off sometime because I think my mind is mushing under all this pressure.